| 1981 |
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Learnt to
ride a bike. |
| 1988 |
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First skiing trip
- to Austria. |
| 1993 |
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Went to
university. First signs of mental health
problems. |
| 1994 |
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Suicide
attempt. |
| 1997 |
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Diagnosed with
schizophrenia. Graduated from university. Started first
job. |
| 1999 |
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Got promoted.
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| 2000 |
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Met current
boyfriend. |
| 2001 |
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Started to speak out in
support of the mind out for mental health
campaign. |
I was pretty rebellious when I was a teenager - truanting,
shoplifting, taking drugs... But somehow I still managed
to get good marks at school. I went to university, to study
psychology, and ended up in a house with people who were quite
restrained and middle class - very different from me. I think
I had a bit of an identity crisis.
Things started to feel strange when I became convinced my
housemates were thinking bad thoughts about me. Slowly I just
got more paranoid, until I thought people could read my thoughts
just walking down the street. I was hearing voices all the
time, but I didn't even realise I was ill. I thought
maybe it was an after-effect of drugs I'd taken when I was
younger.
It took about a year for me to get help, and I went to hospital
as a voluntary patient. Things got worse, and then slowly
better. In the end I went back to university and when I passed
my exams, it felt like a real turning point. I knew my diagnosis
wasn't a life sentence - I could really do something with
my life. I decided I wanted to work in mental health - to
make a contribution. Now I work for a project that helps people
with mental health problems into employment. It's really rewarding.
Discrimination
- my experience:
I think friendships and social relationships can really
suffer when you've got a mental health problem, either
because people are scared, or they don't understand, or
sometimes just because they're thoughtless. I've had friends
who haven't taken me seriously; they seem to have written
me off as a worthwhile person. One friend used to go round
'warning' people about me before they met me - so of course
they were pretty suspicious when they actually did meet
me. I guess in the end you just have to believe in yourself.
That's what really matters.  |
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